{modern, stylized and urban couture~ san diego county based destination photographer}

Nicole Benitez

I am a Modern Stylized and Urban Couture Photographer based in San Diego {Southern California} and always available for session and wedding travel. Specializing in Modeling Portfolios, Commercial and Editorial Photography, Weddings, Couples, Kids and Seniors.

I love God, cupcakes, handbags, shoes, my family and wine. We recently moved back to California after my husband retired from the Marine Corps and we are living life in the Southern California sunshine.

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Monday, August 29, 2011

I Wasn't Prepared... {Personal} || Fallbrook Children's Photographer

I knew it was coming and I tried for weeks to prepare myself for this morning. Each time I thought of it, I would push it out of my mind for just a little bit longer. Last night we prepped backpacks, lunch money,snacks and finished last minute emergency contact cards. We prayed with each of the kids about the upcoming school year and talked about how much fun it would be.
I know it is going to be so exciting and so much fun for them, but sitting here in the silence of a quiet house  for the first time is a little heartbreaking for me. Today is the first day that all five of the munchkins are in school full time and I miss the sounds of their feet shuffling through the house, their voices chattering away with each other, cartoons in the background and even the constant asking for just one more snack or another afternoon beach date.
After a summer full of fun and togetherness, I miss them. No matter how much I prepared myself to send my oldest off to high school and watch her walk through the gates, I couldn't help but remember the first day I walked her into kindergarten and how I bawled my eyes out when I got back to the car. I thought I had prepared myself to watch my baby take his first bus ride to kindergarten with his big first grade sisters, but I couldn't help but think back to just 5 short years ago when I had twin 1 year olds and was cuddling a newborn baby.
I thought I had prepared myself to watch my 7th grader wave goodbye as she trotted off to talk to her friends and not look back on crossing over from care free kid to a beautiful young lady, but I couldn't help but remember her pig tails and hugs as she rushed through the doors of her first day of school.
So as much as I thought I had prepared for all of the firsts that today would bring, I really wasn't prepared at all to realize how much I would miss them in this quiet house.

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1 comment:

Jules said...

Nic, I love, love, love this post!! I am the same kind of mom, and this year's first week of school was a toughie for me ... missed my munchkins oh-so-much-it-hurt-a-bit! SE isn't even in kinder yet, and I'm already dreading how empty this house will feel from M-F during the day! I don't know if you've ever heard the ABBA song "slipping through my fingers" (I think that's what it's called)... in the movie Mamma Mia, Meryl Streep's charactersings it about her daughter. Reading your post, I kept hearing that song, and now, my eyes are all welled up & there's a big old lump in my throat! So very happy we are blessed so richly with our kiddos, and that we realize it!! Hope the lump in your throat lessens as the weeks go by. xox Julie